She's right.

We all can't say SHIT.
She's know her since forever ago. But SHE HERSELF see's the changes..
It's not just because i dont like her.
I remember all the memories i had with her.
Memories DON'T CHANGE, people do.
But anyways. I'm being me. fuck the rest. this is how i am & if you dont like me at my worst, leave.
Like today.
what the hell..
why are you so interested in whats NOT your business. nosy much...
any who,
you got upset because i couldnt keep a conversation. well not being able to talk with you for like 2 weeks. its really hard to keep up with whats new? 
plus i was feeling shitty. so do not blame me for being boring. lulu was there too and amanda.  & i dont know if you noticed. but when im sitting & not talking, wheres sarah to talk to you? HUH? ALL THE WAY OVER THERE? oh im sorry,. It only seems that she LOVES to be talkative & around you when im up & wanting to talk to you, she knows thats the perfect oppurtunity to get me out. 




But that's cool. I'll test this out again monday.
:p
I cannot speak for the rest. Me & Nathan always invite lucia. Anthony is in his own world & Nathan can be too. But tis cool because there will always be team meatballs.
But do what you want, smoke, drink, whatever. because im the one who gets attack for ONE time over and over. and you know damn well you do it. fuck it though. |
honestly, as long as you're with nathan it makes me feel 100% better. Bestfriends, just way more comfortable.
anyone one else, i'll be defensive & concerned, just because i feel like they'll make you do something stupid or they'll take advantage of you.
Lucky you though, having a job, car, license and all that you can actually be free to do this. 
I'm not because i want to be drug free, and actually live with out getting some kind of health problem. not saying i wont though. but im not like every single weekend. no. like. its rare. im RARE. unlike you. 




& fuck. my tummy hurts.
my throat hurts. i feel sick, been sick for liek days now.






 I havent got to spend time with Anthony, but it's my fault. I'm not available till spring break..


But its worth it, ill have my license. and it'll be off my to do list. :)
lol, then i can drive to his house :) cooollll.
Blah..
looking back at old pictures, it hurts.
it sucks telling people your -how we met story- & then crashing down from all the exciting things you were saying into, i cant stand her anymore.... its terrible.. but well... life goes on.
:(


thats all.
Meatball out.