im sorry

im not perfect. i make mistakes too. im sorry if i didnt get it right,. im sorry for everything wrong i do. im sorry i got high because my goddamn emotions took me over. thanks for listening to me, when i needed you the most. thanks for leaving. the 'effects' dont work on me. it just made me tired and sleepy. all those 'effects' its supposed to have, people fucking act them out. because they dont work on me.  maybe i was funny when talking to you. i dont know. dont think i assume things. i fucking know what i heard. so fuck it. its fucking old news. i dont care. i dont care. do what you fucking please. im not in control of you. damn. im sorry. IM SORRY. IM SORRY
bye,
A.

i hate when i ask you something a million times &

you dont give me a goddamn answeer  till the last minute & i get hurt. i get hurt okay. you cant do that to me. i need to know things before hand. i hate when that happends. i get all sad, & angry for if you didnt know. Thats why i smoked today. you fucking made me sad. shit happens. i hate this. i just need to go away, i hate my life. i want to go away forever

I want to cry.

I screw up everything that I love.
for stupid things. I fucking hate myself.
why? why cant i be normal....
why cant i keep my goddamn mouth shut.
now he wont talk to me. i want to just die. i just want to go home, no i just want to go away somewhere far away & never come back....
i hate this, take me now.

life is going downhill

fuck, i hate life. im pretty sure you specifically told me that sarah was going to tell me you smoke with her and that you were just warning me. and this wasnt too long ago either. but whatever. its thy past moving on to a new life. thanks & goodbye.
-ashley

Good Afternoon; Outplayed songs

Okay i have more;

okay another thing.
im not fucking afraid to beat a bitches ass in class. dont be talking shit about me during class like i cant hear you. yeah i know i look like a hardcore lesbian. & shit im proud of that. but if youre gonna say that, say it to my fucking face. & you know what. im fucking taken. so yeah. I do have my other half that LIKES ME FOR ME, Not just to get some. stupid ass hoes out there i swear. Fuck you & fuck youre stupid ass clone like ways, where you all dress the same, n shit. like cakeface n all. thinking youre hella cute when you act dumb,or where you think youre hella hard n youre mobin n your not,. well youre not. fuck. i swear, Youre face will be done with after me. Okay? I wish you could see this but you cant. ugh. alright. so yeah. Im ready to fuck a bitch up!. ;p
-ashley

not going to fucking lie bro.

i'm getting hella annoyed with my fucking  fucking 'friends' asking how big MY boyfriend is. Like for real? get your fucking own or if you have one already GO FUCK HIM OR BOTHER HIM. not mine. like for real get a life. its none of your motherfucking business, & im just sitting here tryna act like i dont give a fuck. but i fucking do. like stop asking. get your OWN fucking sex life & pay attention to them. DONT BE WORRYING ABOUT OURS. Like back off nigga. i know you all cant see this shit but. this is out to you. luna, sarah, yadira, sam, etc. FUCK OFF YOU STUPID ASS BITCHES.   Anyways, I know Anthony like doesnt care about telling them n shit. but i fucking do like. dont fucking tell the whole world. fuck. its all my goddamn fault. i couldnt keep my goddamn mouth shut. yeah. alright. bye.
-ashley.

blogger

you're being a bitch.
thats all about that.
Second. i hate being told im not good enough.
I hate people in general.
Yeah. I think thats what my problem is.
& third. I got a new bed....and im lonely in it....
sigh.. i hate it for now.
but other than that, this is all i have for you today.
Peace.
-ashtree.

Free V-Nasty...

well. my furniture isnt fucking here.
like for real? I emptied my whole room. like theres nothing in here..... I need to get my furniture like now....
fucccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccck.
kay thats all.

I like how no one gives a fuck.

i have like excited, or caring news. and like not a single fuck was given. thats cool. alright thats all i have.
-ashley

fuck bro

I hate when  i get sick out of nowhere... like what the hell. okay so yesterday night i got hella fucking sick to the point where i threw up. D: it was a horrible night . i kept getting hella cold n shit. and this would all happen before my birthday, you know. But i feel better today. everything is sore and weak & my head feels like its going to fucking fall off or some shit. but yeah. & now im hungry, but im afraid if i eat, ill throw up again. Anyways. I hope im at leat 50% BETTER . so i can go to the movies. Im really looking forward to watching winnie the pooh. :)
okay tis all.
-ashtree.