is it really that hard to talk to me.

its been two fucking days and not even a hello.
but if i were to do that, you would get all butthurt.
how does this even work.
you're not treating me like i should be
and starting believe that this is true
"Once someone has you, they stop doing everything it took to get you".
you got to hangout all fucking day and night and sleep with another fucking girl thats your friend and mine too but STILL. thats not even okay, you dont even know how long ive been trying to do something like this. but of course you dont care. its all about you you you. 
I might as well fall off the face of the earth whiel im at it. 
because if i were gone, you wouldnt care, youd just conitue your life. 
and i know in these two past nights, you all talked about each other about other liek me and lucia. and dont lie i know we all do it. 
they're proobably like why are you with her and blah blah blah. sigh'
why couldnt you just answetr.
i'm tired of being treated like this.
im tired of being the second choice.
and i know i am,
:(
sigh.
school should be great now.
-__-
sigh, i had a pretty good break.
alot of good times.
and its always the last days something fucks up.
I hope you had fucking fun,
thanks for talking to me,.
its not like you told me to but whatever.
go suck my dick.
until then. im going to be putting up all these walls i had back up.
the walls you slowly took down & actually cared about.
I take love, relationships & sex seriously.
I try to make you the happiest I can.
But what's in return for me? 
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