I dont want a break from you

i dont want one. i dont. i dont need it.
i just want to be myself. i dont want this, i cant stop crying. i dont want to go through this again. i dont want to. i just want to be happy. & i am happy around you, just seeing you. you re my life, my soul, my everything. i cant do that. i dont want a break. i just want to see you. My stress will be all gonem so i can help with yours. i know nana & naterz are trying to help and they are by listening/. but i cant i cant. ill die. i dont want that. i just want us to be happy. in general you to be happy. but i cant do this. i cant. i love you so much. just thinking about a break kills me inside. i cant. no. i cant. i just want to see you. and hug you and kiss you. i hope this is all just a bad nightmare, i can wake up. fine tomorrow. please god. dont do this to me. please.