i swear to sweet jesus.

i hate everything right now.
I'm so sorry anthony. you know i always want to tell you everything & i would tell you everything that were saying later. but you dont remind me & i honestly forget. ): im so sorry. i love you so much. 7 i dont want to lose you. youre not clingy to me. becausew we both are in a way. i love your affection you show for me, the hugging kissing etc. i LOVE IT. it makes me happy usually. but these couple days have been so kdfjvik fvn for me and i dont know why? D: I hate it. i love how youre asking whats wrong & i cant explain it & i keep quiet & i dont want to. i want to explode and tell you everything. & youre such a great listener when i do.
Next. This stupid ass hoe eating all of the food. like fuck you, were not here to feed your twig ass. why dont you get a job & work to get money. yeah we all usually share. but thats always been between me, anthony, nate & lucia. you're out of my motherfucking picture forever. i literally FORCED. to hangout with you. & today your attitude irritated the fuck out of me. & yeah i know i have one to, but thats only when people are hell stupid like you. and the only reason you even want to hangout with us is because anthony got an xbox & a new game that your bitchass doesnt have. THATS IT. you dont even have the balls to get a gift delivered to your house. what a pussy move. idgaf what my parents would say. anyways. youre bitchass needs to learn manners & ask. idgaf about nate. because he always gets us food. always. WHERE ARE YOU? no. so i dont care if he does. he's a better motherfucking bestfriend than you ever were a friend. he actually helps me out with my problems n shit. And so does anthony & lucia.  You nothing, you need to stop being fake with all of us. & just go be with your friends. becuase youre not welcome with me.  dont try to bullshit me either i swear.  7 if the german status was about me. FUCK YOU. cant even say it in english.  & not just that. but grow some reall balls & and TAG me in it. dont be a bitch.  anyways i just had to rant.
 Anthony. I'm so sorry. I hate that all our plans get twisted, but its because its because im a flexible person .we both really need to start saying no... more often .I really would want to play crackdown with you & you only likfe you wanted us too. l; sigh. We will one day. i swear. if its the last thing i live to do.
Third; 
I hate how our group; nate, anthony lucia & me.(sra sometimes)all know that everyone is talking shit.
nate>anthony
take notcie that this is WHAT I HEARD.physically come from their mouths.
Nate>lucia
Nate>sarah
Me>Sarah
Anthony>Nate?
Sarah>Lucia
Lucia>sarah
>= about*



fuck everything, i just want to go to college already, i never want to see sarah again.
& ill make another post later.